Day 7.
Weighed in and I was just under 1lb down. BMI down to 36.33.
Not at all in a good mood today. Will try to pull it together for tomorrow, take some nice photos and buy some yummy, healthy food.
I’m eaten about 1100 calories tomorrow. Not enough I know. I don’t feel hungry but I know I can’t sustain. I’m a large framed, fat, active person and need lots of calories just to function.
Anyway, I will be back tomorrow in a better mood. Night.
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I’m trying not to swear. In real life I swear like a trooper. Like a foul mouthed sailor. But I’m trying to refrain on my blog. For now anyway.
My stupid bloody job. How is it possible to get so frustrated and upset at something, but feel like half your life would be ripped apart if you left. Deep down I know I need to leave for the sake of my mental health, but I base so much of my self worth on what I do. Does that make sense?
Ugh. What a rubbish couple of shifts.
Day 6. Eventually awake.
It’s routine now for me to have a big lie in on a Saturday, as my sleep pattern is so rubbish. This could be deemed as selfish, but as my husband takes our son to the cinema each week so I would only be pottering around the house alone. Today I slept till half 11, lovely.
However, I was aware that as a result of my extended sleep it was several hours later than my usual weigh in. I hadn’t eaten or drank anything since half 12 last night. Despite my concerns about the time discrepancy, I went for it and I am…..
Another 1 pound down!
And my BMI is now 36.42… a reduction of 0.57 since Monday. I feel so pleased because I really have COMPLETELY changed my lifestyle and my weight loss absolutely reflects this.
It’s less than a week but I still feel so positive and optimistic about this side of my life. Now if only I could feel the same about my job 
Anyway, I can see, with just a few pounds, that my double chin and arms are smaller and the fat on my back has started to decrease. Wow!
It’s really important for me to bear in mind that the next week will have less dramatic results. I do a lot less exercise when working (won’t be able to fit in those nightly one hour stepping sessions) but hopefully the weight should still go down a little. Gosh darn working in a job where you are stuck in a chair all night!
Happy Saturday
Sucks ass.
Work sucked. Not a massive surprise.
I got home just after 11pm and realised that I had eaten less than 900 calories. Not good. So I’ve just snarfed down crackerbreads with tuna and cucumber, as well as some mini waffles. I didn’t feel hungry but don’t want my body to go into starvation mode so am trying to be sensible.
Anyway it’s bedtime. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, although I fear it will be 50 times worse. Anyone hiring?
Day 5. Errrrrmm….
I feel all bloated and gross.
I think I need to drink more water, yesterday I think I only got through about 5 or 6 smallish glasses. Definitely not enough for someone my size.
My BMI has gone up slightly but I’m not going to stress too much. I will stick to the basics today – cereal and fruit for breakfast, vegetable soup with pitta and peach pieces for lunch and an omelette and salad for tea. Snacks will be fruit and some nuts. Hopefully this should bring it down again.
So, it’s Friday. My boy is at school, my husband is at work and I’m sat in my empty, messy house. I can’t face tidying up today. I need to sort out a wheel on my pushbike but I just can’t bring myself to do it.
This is definitely my hump day. I feel so lonely and miserable at home. I spend the whole day DREADING work. It’s so stressful, and for the last 4 nights I have had the worst dreams about my job. I’ve woken up each day feeling upset and annoyed that it’s taking over my personal life.
Grrrr
Isn’t it annoying when you make a recipe but forget to add an ingredient?! I’ve just made a cauliflower based pizza and forgot to add an egg. Hopefully it won’t make too much difference, but I’m so annoyed with myself. Grrrrrr!!
* Update – I’m not sure how much difference an egg would have made because that was not great. Next time I’m going to stick to real pizza crust.
nakd
nakd pecan pie? yummy 
nakd cocoa orange? scrumptious!
I cant believe that snack bars made solely from dates (yuck) and other fruit and nuts can taste like this. It really is the 21st century!
Day 4.
Day four and I’m still feeling positive.
4 pounds lost, BMI reduced by 0.47. I’m very happy with this. I’m eating a decent amount of healthy food, I’ve been active each day and I feel mentally strong.
I haven’t had any cravings for extra sugary or salty food. I haven’t felt the urge to gorge on a big pizza, a ton of chocolate or a mammoth portion of my world famous macaroni cheese. It’s like a switch has been flipped and I am not eating for emotional or psychological reasons anymore. I’m eating because my body needs fuel, and I’m exercising to stay physically strong.
I’m aware that if I stick to simple salad with some form of protein everyday that I would lose a buttload of weight, but i don’t want to be that extreme. I’m changing my life and I want to eat smaller portions of food that I enjoy the taste of. This isn’t a fad diet, so I’m not excluding anything, but simply modifying my behaviour for the sake of my health.
Also, I’ve set myself a bedtime of 12am so I try to get snuggled up before that time. The increased amount of sleep is definitely helping keeping me to my routine. I don’t crave sugar for that instant high as I have enough energy to keep me going. It’s fantastic.
I am aware that this euphoria isn’t going to last forever so I’m going to enjoy the positive, and get through the negative knowing that everything is temporary.
Hope everyone in blogland is having a lovely day, I’m off to get breakfast! Happy Thursday
1800 from here on in.
In the space of a few hours I’ve changed my mind a little. Despite 1900 calories being about the right amount for me to lose 2 pounds a week, it seems just a little too high. Therefore I’m going to set my calorie goal/limit at 1800 for the time being. We’ll see how that goes
Day 3. Feeling like Violent Beauregarde.
I feel like I’ve struggled to consume 1900 calories for the last few days. That’s absolutely ridiculous.
In the past I must have binged on 3000, 4000 maybe even 5000 calories a day. Empty, useless calories leaving only a dent in my wallet and an extra inch on my waistline. How pointless.
I’m going to stick at the 1900 daily calorie limit, but try to increase the calories eaten at breakfast and lunch to make life a little easier. I don’t want to eat too little and end up permanently grumpy but eating this much in the pm is making me feel like violet beauregarde.
I spent 65 minutes stepping on the Wii last night so decided to weigh in today. I’m another pound down and I’ve lost .10 on my BMI. I’m feeling pretty proud of myself, not in a smug ‘Look at me, I’m so brilliant’ way but this is the first time in my life that I genuinely feel like I’m serious about changing my lifestyle. That’s exciting!
After getting myself ready to take the boy to at school, I decided to go on an epic walk straight after dropping him off. It was only when we were halfway to school that I realised I hadn’t put the nike+ receiver in my ipod – doh! So I’ve come home, eaten breakfast, watched Supersize vs Superskinny and am planning a little snuggly time in bed with a book. Then after lunch I will go for a long walk, hopefully burning off at least 300 calories.
I’ve set myself a little goal of burning 500 calories today and tomorrow, but this is just something to aim for. If I only reach 250, I’m not going to beat myself up. I’ve started going on Wii fit plus in the evening, primarily to stop me binging, but also to give me something fun to do. My husband apparently doesn’t mind as long as he gets the laptop! Men, hey…
Anyway, right, blanket time! Happy Wednesday
